You told me that you’ve started drinking to dull the despair.
If only you knew that I’ve been doing that for nearly two months since I came home. I’ve blacked out so many times, lost so many nights, just trying to hide from my pain.
But you don’t know that…because you never asked.
It hurt when I realized that if our roles were reversed, you would walk away.
has been the most hurtful experience
i have ever come to know
and yet i hold on to the hurt
long after you are gone
so that i may maintain a connection
no matter how painful it may be
for i am unable to bring myself
the blissful calamity
that was brought into my life