RocknRoll Insomniac
This is my life. 100% honest, 100% me. This is only place I am truly open how I feel and what happens in my life. This is just me, the good, the bad and the ugly.
You told me that you’ve started drinking to dull the despair.
If only you knew that I’ve been doing that for nearly two months since I came home. I’ve blacked out so many times, lost so many nights, just trying to hide from my pain.
But you don’t know that…because you never asked.
It hurt when I realized that if our roles were reversed, you would walk away.
loving you
has been the most hurtful experience
i have ever come to know
and yet i hold on to the hurt
long after you are gone
so that i may maintain a connection
no matter how painful it may be
for i am unable to bring myself
to forget
the blissful calamity
that was brought into my life
with you
